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it's sinous form

around his mind

serruptiously

speaking

sly,

superfluous

lies, half-truths

and stilted

serenades

appeasing to

a sense of

times bygone

but in time

it's ruse

would

wither his soul

and rot

his sense

of right

and wrong...

turns out i lied to myself

...again

when i wrote 'roguelife'

with a bottle of jack

i was back to telling myself

the same old lies

i was frustrated

lonely

out of sorts

sleeping in my car

and dejected

so...

i reached for that old poison

and felt the burn

in more ways then one

commence three days of

pint after pint after pint

of straight whiskey

and

P

t h e R O A D

to m o r e O

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ending with two nights

in J A I L

and a D U I

first one

like an idiot

i sped past the state patrol

doing eighty (in a 55)

my dog went to a shelter

and i got to sit in a holding cell

with fentanyl addicts

coming

D

O

W

N

a miserable sight

i felt for them

i wept for my dog

i self-flaggelated myself

for missing my fiance's

memorial we hold every year

AGAIN!

(was in jail last year too)

luckily the judge went easy

i got released today

licking my wounds now

and still resolved to

REBUILD

this old wolf knows better

but what is past is past

once the whiskey takes over

i can't howl

i can't run wild

free

the bottle is a steel trap

that clamps down

and wont let go

i can't let it

wont let it anymore

i have to howl

or this wolf

will die

but i'm still alive

and sober again

howling once more

let the moon be

my beacon

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